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I love you the most
And lately I’ve been looking
At wedding dresses

1 day ago
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me:hey i have spoons to spend today! i finally don't feel just absolutely terrible
me:spends the fucking kitchen
me:fucking terrible
1 week ago
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Babysitting Chronicles

Me:Get your hands out of your nose
Me:Get your hands out of your mouth
Me:Get your hands out of your pants
Me:Just don't.
1 week ago
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my SO is here and though it makes me feel selfish for skipping class i deserve to be around my SO when i feel terrible so i’m going to turn off the guilt or i’ll be damned

1 week ago
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i can’t go to class tonight. i can barely stay fully aware right now. but i’m so upset. i feel so sick, i’m so tired. i wish my SO would come over tonight. god i feel sick. I might fail this class at this point, I’ve missed it so often.

1 week ago
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Anonymous asked: TRIGGER WARNING: I know you don't want to hear it, but the dizziness, nausea and tiredness might be from your relapse. I know I got SO much worse when I started restricting again and that it didn't help my other chronic illness symptoms. I did manage to get my doctor to prescribe anti-nausea meds, which might help with your nausea and when your body just starts to throw up without permission, it did for me.

No it’s occurred to me. I actually ate pretty “normally” this weekend since I had family visiting so I don’t know if that’s causing my particularly rough day. But I know it’s probably making my health a lot worse, and my body has been throwing up w/o my permission. Did you recover or are you still restricting? I just wonder if eating normal a couple of days isn’t enough to get my body back to it’s normal chronically ill self. 

Thanks anon, it’s nice to hear from someone in such a similar situation..

1 week ago
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I feel terrible. I’m so dizzy and nauseous. It feels like all of my energy was drained and now I’m still spinning in the drain.

I’m so tired of feeling bad and I have a class tonight that I keep missing. But lord I feel so terrible and every inch of me hurts more than usual. Ugh.

1 week ago
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i wanted to do this thing and now i feel too unhealthy to do the thing but i feel like a failure for not even trying the thing and the whole conflict makes me want to hurt myself or shut down but i really have to decide to do or not do the thing i wish i was more of a functioning human though

4 days ago
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going to class tonight and i’m going to figure out if i need to drop and retake

but it is so frustrating that my professor won’t communicate through email. i’m so anxious. so. yeah. ugh.

1 week ago
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1 week ago
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my mom seems to think if i get up and move around i’ll feel better

my legs feel like they’re on fire. it feels like someone is rolling my feet flat. my hips feel like they’re coming apart. every time i sit up most of my vision is spots.

but i feel like this because i’ve been in bed all night. yeah.

i’m so fucking done. 

1 week ago
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my mom doesn’t think my SO should come over if i’m not going to class. but like, being sick and alone doesn’t make me able to go to class being sick and with my SO does make me feel a little better. i’m not moving either way, i’m not magically able to feel better either way. i don’t know. gah.

1 week ago
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I’ve only been in relapse for a few weeks, god I hope it doesn’t take that long. Fully recovering would probably help though. Meh.

I’ve only been in relapse for a few weeks, god I hope it doesn’t take that long. Fully recovering would probably help though. Meh.

1 week ago
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I have had it checked and I’m good! But I actually take a supplement every day just in case. Thanks for the idea though!

I have had it checked and I’m good! But I actually take a supplement every day just in case. Thanks for the idea though!

1 week ago
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